So Much Hate

I am overwhelmed by all the darkness in the world. So much hate... so much anger. Loved ones hurting loved ones and friends hurting friends. Nothing on the TV but death, war, sex crimes and serial killers. Politics and money corrupt every work place. People have become inferior to each other... it's the survival of the fittest! Everyone for himself at any person's expense.

I've lost faith in humanity.... again.

The husband is away and the baby is in bed. I'm soaking in the shower , alone with my thoughts after an emotionally draining work day and thinking to myself: how am I going to bring a child in to this world in the next 6 months? What was I thinking? What if they grow up to hate me? What if they don't learn respect? How will they treat others and how will they be treated? How can we set a better example?

The overwhelming fear is about to gobble me right up when a voice comes into my head and reminds me.... I don't have to do this alone.

Why do I try so hard to manage the things that are beyond my control? We get one life on earth. We get one chance and this is it. This world is too big for me and I was not meant to walk it alone so why do I try? Why do I hold everything on my shoulders & let fear and worry steal my soul?

If ever there was a time to step back and let God take the wheel, now is that time. For me it starts with prayer. All we are told to do is believe & to love. How can that be so hard? Well for some of us it's VERY hard. Maybe... just maybe if I can find a way to let Him, God can show me how to get a handle on this. Then I can live & teach by example.

And maybe that will be enough.